COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS......

5 weeks left and that its already enough to make me feel good..i cant wait for all of this to end so i can get my life back..my as a life of teacher is so distressing and i really respect those teachers who still have passion even though they have been in this business for a very long time..to be fair, not all the experience and memories are difficult and dark..some of those days are very beautiful but some are not..i don't think that i can deal with this kind of life..its true that teaching is the most challenging profession in this world..its like having 100 teenagers as your children..we have to deal with what they r going through too..all this while i just said that teaching is a noble and challenging job but now when i said it, i REALLY MEANT it...it is..believe me..here is a quote that i found on one of the teacher's desk that really kept me thinking..

TEACHER.......
ReVEAl ThE PrESenT
pREsENt ThE PaST
ANd
DetERMiNe THe fUtUrE

WHEN TWO WORLDS COLLIDED.........

we had a fight last night..and i totally admit it that its all on me..i went to the movies with my girlfriends and hit the uptown later..we stayed there until 12 in the morning..he just couldn't accept the fact that i went out until late at night..of all of us late night, I'm not the only ONE with BF...all of us had a fight becoz of last night...but now i find myself to be the only who haven't settled anything yet..I'd spent the whole day asking 4 forgiveness but get nothing in return..my girlfriend had already exchange the position where her BF asking for forgiveness for being a control freak and become a hulk last night..BUT ME..like usual..always WAITING...WAITING..and WAITING..I'm thinking how come he can't be like my gf's bf..know when to interrupt and BACK OFF..this has been going on for 4 years..and to be honest, it does not get better..I'm asking myself did he even aware of my ANGER, CURIOSITY, SADNESS, DISAPPOINTMENT, REGRETS, DOUBTS and all those mix feeling..did he even aware of the SACRIFICES I've made..did he even aware of how much I've CHANGED for him..and did he even aware of how much I've had SUPPRESSED my real self in order to be the one that he IMAGINE i am..i guess the answer is NO...all those EGO cannot be challenge in order to save this relationship...although i have doubts in this but once again i need to console my own self by saying "he does not like other BF because i compliment him..i can be patient and i can deal with him..that's why we r 2gether"

i will be positive in this and i know i will always survive..

YOU HURT ME SO MUCH WHEN ALL I EVER DID WAS LOVE YOU

DIFFERENT??????IS IT OK THEN?????

sometimes i found it funny to think that how people are very different from us..but sometimes its annoys us...do we always have to appreciate the differences??..every1 has limits and there are things that we cant tolerate...all my life, I've been to a boarding and I've met so many different people..and now I'm a teacher, I've met so many people everyday too..how can we tolerate people with differences..there are girls that so into man..there are woman that get confident from others weaknesses..and there are man that just so ignorance about love...and then i've also met a girl that just cannot learn how to share...hellllllooooooo..we also share the world..why can't we just share other little things in the world..it's not like other people will taking away your life by sharing..nor spread dangerous diseases...this is so off the world...now i learn to accept others differences but not appreciate them...is it a sin?...