WHEN TWO WORLDS COLLIDED.........

we had a fight last night..and i totally admit it that its all on me..i went to the movies with my girlfriends and hit the uptown later..we stayed there until 12 in the morning..he just couldn't accept the fact that i went out until late at night..of all of us late night, I'm not the only ONE with BF...all of us had a fight becoz of last night...but now i find myself to be the only who haven't settled anything yet..I'd spent the whole day asking 4 forgiveness but get nothing in return..my girlfriend had already exchange the position where her BF asking for forgiveness for being a control freak and become a hulk last night..BUT ME..like usual..always WAITING...WAITING..and WAITING..I'm thinking how come he can't be like my gf's bf..know when to interrupt and BACK OFF..this has been going on for 4 years..and to be honest, it does not get better..I'm asking myself did he even aware of my ANGER, CURIOSITY, SADNESS, DISAPPOINTMENT, REGRETS, DOUBTS and all those mix feeling..did he even aware of the SACRIFICES I've made..did he even aware of how much I've CHANGED for him..and did he even aware of how much I've had SUPPRESSED my real self in order to be the one that he IMAGINE i am..i guess the answer is NO...all those EGO cannot be challenge in order to save this relationship...although i have doubts in this but once again i need to console my own self by saying "he does not like other BF because i compliment him..i can be patient and i can deal with him..that's why we r 2gether"

i will be positive in this and i know i will always survive..

YOU HURT ME SO MUCH WHEN ALL I EVER DID WAS LOVE YOU