perfect world???

y do u always see it as excuses not as a real deal? after all, we live in a world that is not always perfect...there's always something up n we cannot avoid it...it was never my intention..when the world is turning their back on me, I'm counting on one person but at last left me alone to deal with everything...once more EGO comes between me n u and its not a good thing..I'm not strong..i need some1 to rely on n i don't understand y it can't b u...

think I'm stone hearted? trust me, u haven't seen my stone heart yet...

THE UNPREDICTABLE DAY!!!!!!!!

I was expecting my lecturer to come today but she didn't showed up..I'm so frustrated because i want all this observation thing to be over soon.. i just go on with the lesson but i don't know what's getting into my student today..usually they tend to behave in the early morning..but today..they don't..most of them..i caught them sleeping..chit chatting..even fighting..goshhh..they giving me a hard time..

there is this one boy..i asked him to move to give some space to other group..he said he is lazy..i asked him many2 times..i even stand beside him..he still refused..this boy is actually the biggest boy in the class.. then cynically i asked his weight..only then he moved without a word..the same boy again i asked him to get in a group..he said his group is terrible..i don't know what happened to me..maybe i was too mad then i said "U R TERRIBLE"..he was shocked and then moved to his group..when i was supervising his group work he complained again to me saying "SEE TEACHER..THEY R TERRIBLE..THEY DON'T INVOLVED ME"...i told him nicely to tell us his ideas than i will listen as well as his friends..he said "NO IDEA..BLANK"..i was so mad then i merely shouting "..SEE..NOW U WANT TO BLAME UR FRIENDS"..then i move to other group without saying a word..

another boy refused to move..i had to asked him to stand up..and me myself a TEACHER moved is chair and then asked him to sit..

i made an announcement, if u see ur friends r sleeping,,wake them up..so this one nice boy wake his friend..the sleeping boy woke up and spontaneously hit his friend at the back using book..i go to straightly to him n said "I ASKED HIM TO WAKE U UP..ANY PROBLEM?"..he look at me with THAT look but luckily he didn't do anything to me..of course he is bigger than me..

even though all of this had happen i really wished that my lecturer had observe me i want this to be over..to make it worst, after the class my friend told our lecturer was actually observing my other Friends at the same time i was expecting her..then the head of panel also came to me asking when she can observe me..so its going to be on Friday because tomorrow my mentor will be observing me..

i am so tired today..not just today..i think it will go onlike this until friday..i am so tired..pissed off..dissappointed..angry..and many kinds of feeling but obviously happy is not one of them..

p/s: my mentor gave me a good marks 4 the first observation..I'm glad because she is not that strict towards me..she even gave me many advices and ideas..

RELAKU PUJUK.....

Di kejar bayang-bayang resah
Bila hatimu masih tak berubah
Enggan di punya
Dan di penjara
Belaian cintaku ini

Aku bukan lelaki yang tewas
Bisa menyambar walau ku di tolak
Biar di uji
Kanan dan kiri
Kau kan tetap ku miliki

Tiada lafaz yang lebih agung
Kalimah cintamu
Yang kutunggu-tunggu

Biar jasadku yang menanggung
Permainan darimu
Relaku pujuk

Janganlah kau salahkan aku
Terus memburu menawan cintamu
Aku percaya
Sedikit masa
Kau kecundang akhirnya

Usahlah kau bersedih
Dihadapanmu aku hadir
Memadam resah dan curiga
Dari hatimu. oh. oh.

Apakah kali ini
Bisa kau tolak dan berlari
Setelah aku menanamkan
Azimatku

p/s: wish a guy would sing me a song like this..hehe..(with a guitar would make it more perfect)..

LIFE IS GOOD

THE SUN IS SHINING..

THE SKY IS BLUE..

THE BIRDS ARE SINGING..

THE WIND IS BLOWING..

THE OCEAN IS WAVING..

THE PEOPLE ARE SMILING..


THEN


I LOOK AT THE WINDOW..

IT'S RAINING..


THEN..


I REALIZE...

IT'S ALL IN MY HEAD..