Lonely.....

[CL]
Jigeum naega haneun yaegi
Neol apeuge halji molla
Ama nal jukdorok miwohage doel kkeoya
[Minzy]
Naega yejeon gatji antadeon ne mal
Modu teullin mareun aniya
Nado byeonhaebeorin naega nat seolgimanhae

[Dara]
Neomu chakhan neonde neon geudaeroinde Oh
[CL]
I don't know I don't know
Naega wae ireoneunji
[Dara]
Geutorok saranghaenneunde neon yeogi inneunde Oh
[Minzy]
I don't know
[Dara]
Ije nal chatgo sipeo

[Bom]
Baby I'm sorry neowa isseodo nan lonely
Saranghagin naega bujokhanga bwa
Ireon motnan nal yongseohae
[Minzy]
I'm sorry ige neowa naui story
Sarangiran naegen gwabunhanga bwa
Ne gyeote isseodo
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/0-9/2ne1/lonely.html ]
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
[Bom]
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
[CL]
Nega jalmotan ge anya
Naega isanghan geoya
Imi orae jeonbuteo nan junbi haenna bwa ibyeoreul
[Bom]
Jeongmal jalhaejugo sipeonneunde
Hapil sarang apeseoneun wae
Ireoke haneobsi jagajigo oerounji

[Dara]
Neomu chakhan neonde neon geudaeroinde Oh
[CL]
I don't know I don't know
Naega wae ireoneunji
[Dara]
Geutorok saranghaenneunde neon yeogi inneunde Oh
[Bom]
I don't know
[Dara]Ije nal chatgo sipeo

[CL]
Baby I'm sorry neowa isseodo nan lonely
Saranghagin naega bujokhanga bwa
Ireon motnan nal yongseohae
[Minzy]
I'm sorry ige neowa naui story
Sarangiran naegen gwabunhanga bwa
Ne gyeote isseodo

Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
[CL]
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

[Minzy]
Cuz I'm just another girl
I bami werowo nan
[Bom]
Deoneun gyeondil su eobseo good bye
[Dara]
Cuz I'm just another girl
[CL]
Neomuna werowo
[Bom]
Jigeum ne gyeote isseodo baby I'm so lonely

[Minzy]
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
[CL]
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely.

English Translation

I know that you're gonna hate me
For saying this words right now
But i ain't got no choice, i just have to let it out

Cause you see lately something's changed my mind
Since the fire within me has died
I'm a stranger to myself
Don't wanna feel this way-eh-ehy
You're so sweet so lovely

But even so i let go
I don't know I don't know
What's taking over me?
Your loving arms reach out for me
But even so i let go
I don't know
I gotta find my way home

Baby I'm sorry even though you're here i'm lonely
I'm so selfish, I ain't worthy of your heart
Wait here and watch me walk away
I'm sorry, here's the ending to our story
When we're close I still feel like we're worlds apart
I can't stay cause with you
baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
eh eh

You didn't create this problem
All of this is my own fault
I can swear to God that I've been ready to break up
From the start
When you hold me I feel so out of place
I feel trapped I wanna run away
How come when I'm met by love it makes me
weak and empty?

You're so sweet so lovely
But even so i let go
I don't know I don't know
What's taking over me?
Your loving arms reach out for me
But even so i let go
I don't know

I gotta find my way home
Baby I'm sorry even though you're here i'm lonely
I'm so selfish, I ain't worthy of your heart
Wait here and watch me walk away
I'm sorry, here's the ending to our story
When we're close I still feel like we're worlds apart
I can't stay cause with you
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

Cuz I'm just another girl
Who's tired of being lonely
I can't take it anymore, goodbye
Cuz I'm just another girl
Who's tired of it all
I just cannot stay cause with you baby I'm so lonely
lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
eh eh . .

i am stronger now..i've been trying to follow ur lead..IT'S TOO LATE FOR YOU..i realise it now..i said it before i'm on the tip of an iceberg..i either jump or wait..but either way..I'M FALLING DOWN..it's just a matter of time..

when i hurt, i tried so much not to hurt you.. i didn't speak for afraid what i said might hurt you as well..i didnt look in ur eyes for afraid you might pity me and lost words in expressing urself..yes i kept it all inside..but when u're hurt..u try as much as i did to make me feel the same way as u do..n still u said you love me more than i do..from my point of view..it isnt love..its an obsession..when you love some1 u try hard not to hurt them..yes u can say the same about me..u can turn this all around..but i admitted i'm being selfish n start to take care of my feeling before any1 else..all i need is time..but u wont understand me..yes u're hurt..me too..to the point where i'm not sure if this is love anymore..yes u're childish..u know it but didnt know how it affect me and didnt even try to change..

i don't know how much longer i can take this anymore..you and your temper..i'm really really at the tip of an iceberg..

it's not fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..it's not fair..

i've never done it to any person i know n i believe i didnt deserve any of it..

ur excuse is u can't control urself??if u cannot control urself now..hw will u control urself in the future???

i'm hard to control and you're hard to please..

as much as I LOVE YOU..

i'm willing to let you go if u cannot take it anymore...

i'm sooooooooooo messed up..i got tangled up in a game that i thought i have control on..i really really really need to karaoke now..huh..

there's no need to over-control me when you know that i'm yours for certain..i love you enough to let you taste a bit of freedom and expecting you to do the same..

HeaRt SkIPs a BEaT

Heart skips a beat my heart skips a beat

My heart is playing tricks on me

And it’s building bricks on me

I can’t break through

And I can’t face you

My world it’s burning up somehow

but I need some time

To know what’s right is turning slowly now

‘Cause it’s only in the quiet that I feel some relief

I’m trying hard not to resist the joy

Don’t listen to me I’m being paranoid

I might try hard but it’s too hard to avoid

My heart skips a beat

My heart skips a beat

My heart is always first to know

And as the feeling grows

I can’t deny

push those thoughts aside

My world is full of loveliness

But I focus on the stress

My heart says “Go” but my brain says “No”

And it’s only in the quiet that I hear myself breathe

I’m trying hard not to resist the joy

Don’t listen to me I’m being paranoid

I might try hard but it’s too hard to avoid

My heart skips a beat

My heart skips a beat

My heart skips a beat

My heart skips a beat

Oh I know this time ’cause it’s physical

My blood has stopped and I am breathless as well

But I need a minute to convince myself

‘Cause it’s only in the quiet that I know what to feel

I’m trying hard not to resist the joy

Don’t listen to me I’m being paranoid

I might try hard but it’s too hard to avoid

My heart skips a beat

My heart skips a beat

I’m trying hard not to resist the joy

Don’t listen to me I’m being paranoid

I might try hard but it’s too hard to avoid

My heart skips a beat

My heart skips a beat

My heart skips a beat

My heart skips a beat

life gets even more complicated when we try to simplify things..but things can go wrong if we complicate things more than we should..huh..i dont know how 2 balance both..

i always thought that i am not normal..because i often find myself very different from anyone else even my closest friends..i also find my behavior contradict most of the time..sometimes i can be very funny but there are times i'm speechless..sometimes i can be very smart but there are times i feel like i'm less smart (p/s. not stupid)..but when i think about it, how do we actually define normality..huh..something to ponder upon...

Passion..

i used to love creative writing so much..

i just love to write everything that comes to

my mind..i even write on something that was

not exist in my real life but just come

across my mind when i watch my surrounding..i

wrote down my feelings..i became expressive on paper..and sometimes i even

wrote down the opposite of what i was going

through just to find strength and at

the same time allow myself to be in denial

and provide me a little more time to be happy..i remember to have my own novel where i wrote

down a life that i would have if i was living

somewhere else..it was fun..my mind can take me

anywhere i want..i find ease in writing..i find freedom..

a freedom of mind...

i guess i did not realized when it stopped..i dont even know what to write now..im not as creative as i used to be.. maybe because i was forced to write in academic world, i lost interest in writing for pleasure..or maybe i just simply tired to justify myself when i write something provocative or questionable..i just want to write..sometimes there are words that come through my mind when i watch something or relate it to what i see but not what i go through..i feel the sudden urge to write but i did not because afraid of what people would think and just how to justify myself..i want to be able to write anything again but i did not know how to start and how to face the outcomes..

As much as I LOVE You

REMEMBER

I LOVE MYSELF too

long...long....night...

waited all night 4 u 2 come home...

but it wasn't enough....

started all good but honesty destroy it...

cold case went hot...

cry myself 2 sleep....

where r you????

almost choke myself crying....

where r u????

i'm a good a woman....

u know i am...

n i dont deserve this....

CHoiCEs...

You made ur choice clear by choosing ur pride over me...surprisingly i did not surprise as i did expected it from you...u may not realise this but there are times that pride get in our way... but who can blame u..its hard for us 2 evaluate ourselves because we are just not capable 2 see ourselves clearly...im sad but honestly i totally understand it...everyone deserve a choice including me..n i choose to stay n suck it all up..

trying to pull my"tormented"self together....